The State Fair will be closed today here in Indianapolis. You have probably heard that 5 people were killed and 45 hospitalized last night when a freak wind collapsed a temporary stage just before the group Sugarland was to perform.
Cancer is the same kind of disaster as that wind, coming out of nowhere, striking indescriminantly at innocent victims. Long time blogger and cervical cancer survivor offers these reactions at the journey | Life as I know it!
I am so angry at cancer right now! I hate it, it is pissing me off, and I just want it to go away! NOW!
Yesterday, I received an email from the friend that I spoke of a couple of days ago – the one that I ran into at the lab on Thursday. In her email, she was letting me know that her Thursday morning appointment with the oncologist did not go well – she has developed a new lesion, she is extremely toxic from the amount of chemotherapy that is building up in her body, and the recommendation is that she take a “chemo vacation.”
Of course, the doctor has her best interests at heart, and he is giving her the correct advice. But for a cancer patient, being pulled off of treatment, even for a short period of time, is an extremely frightening thing. You worry that if a tumor can grow while you are on treatment, what will happen to you when you are off of it? Your mind returns to “stinkin’ thinkin’” and you begin to fear that you only have days, at the very most, left to live. But even worse than that, you feel, in some way, defeated. Starting a new chemo seems to be too much, and you fill with exhaustion at the very thought of having to pick up the fight once again, learning to adjust to the side effects of the new drug.
I feel so, so bad for L. and her husband. And I am so tired of watching what cancer does to people who I care about – how it slowly and insidiously alters how people live their lives, ensuring that it, cancer, is the ever-pervading thought in the minds of patients and their loved ones.
It makes me angry!
And so, I am looking for a Warrior, who will take this horrible disease on, get busy and discover the secret code to killing it. Someone who can find a way to eradicate it forever.
This disease is so ruthless! It is persistent, it is sneaky, it is hateful. And it has a talent for attacking good, kind people. It seems to disregard those who are evil, and only attacks people who deserve a better life. And that is not just my opinion – a couple of weeks ago, one of my nurses told me that at the Cross, the staff who work there are forever asking the question, “Why is it always the nice people who get cancer?”
Even the people who, every day, work so hard at helping patients to get better are stymied as to why that is. So, if you know a warrior, a hero, someone who is up for the fight…please! We need him desperately!
All applications will be considered.
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